ungrounded and uneasy
how can a day that started out so well end so terrible. it seems almost impossible for such a sudden and sharp difference. i let someone very close to me down. someone that i care about deeply because of a simple mistake. an oversight. its not the end of the world. the mistake will be corrected. but it wont be how it was supposed to be because i dropped the ball. people will be disappointed and i feel a sense of emptiness i haven't felt in a long time. a sense of failure.
i rode home tonite slowly and deliberately. being aware of each pedal stroke. feeling light-headed. lost. ungrounded. when the very thin edge of what you think you know life to be is pulled out from under you....its not a bad thing. its suffering. what do they say: the razors edge. that is where i am at tonite.
i rode home tonite slowly and deliberately. being aware of each pedal stroke. feeling light-headed. lost. ungrounded. when the very thin edge of what you think you know life to be is pulled out from under you....its not a bad thing. its suffering. what do they say: the razors edge. that is where i am at tonite.
posted by megan | 12/19/2006 07:29:00 PM
3 Comments:
How do you know when your full and happy if you aren't empty at times...
Have a Good rest of your week!
How do you know when your happy and full only when you have times of emptiness and doubt?
Have a really good rest of your week!
blogger was a bit funny this morn sorry bout the double post =)
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